Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Learning as I go

There are so many reasons to not do something. Most reasons are practical like 'I don't have enough time, money, resources'...then there is the default thought, 'what difference can one person make'...but my favorite excuse for not doing something-and I've used it all my life- "I am just not programmed that way"..Isn't it great!? I mean really great? Nothing beats the justification in it.
I'm not necessarily saying that 'I don't know how', cause then one can argue- 'well, learn' and I am not admitting that I am afraid, that just leads to a cause of being courageous...
No, simply saying "ummm yeah, my brain isn't wired that way' has somehow become the lie that justifies me, effortlessly, walking away from a world of life that just may lead me into living, walking, and breathing in God's Will.
The bottom line is that I know I am lazy and terrified...and yes, self-centered. I don't know how to do everything but at the potential of failing in front of others, at the cost of looking like a fool perhaps, at the idea of stepping out of my own comfort to do anything that is bigger than myself...well that just requires a whole lot of effort and courage,,, and FAITH.
(A friend recounted to me a sermon by Joyce Meyers, this was just yesterday so I still have to listen, but she spoke of the shield of Faith, regarding spiritual warfare; it doesn't just float in front of us protecting us, it requires effort for us to actually lift that shield and use it...and we build a muscle.)
I loved hearing this! Because faith does require effort. And there is transformation in faith. Isn't it great to know the Holy Spirit can transform us! Will transform us!

There isn't going to be much transformation, though, if I keep using the excuse, "That's just the way I am" (what is an excuse but a lie we live out). So here's to effort- to faithfully walk towards where God is calling us to be, how to be...
That's what I am learning everyday that I work toward making this ministry happen. I find myself turning more and more to God in doing tasks, which is so much more awesome than depending on myself and my own abilities! I still don't have a team locked down-So I am up close and personal with all the things that I am not good at, like leadership in team building, and administration skills, and well I have a long list :)
But I am pushing through faithfully and learning as I go and I want to share with anyone who uses that same modo that I've used all my life- So to challenge you too! And it IS challenging but extremely rewarding to stop hiding behind excuses and just go for it!

1 comment:

  1. This isn't in the same context, but i heard someone say, and I'm miss quoting it, why can't we just accept ourselves for who we are and focus on the gifts we have to offer rather then focus on what we aren't doing. Stop striving to be better because it just takes away from who we really are..
    So within the context of what you wrote, balancing both and being aware of what motivates us can lead us to our highest self.

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